maybe

Maybe I get tired, bored or just give up.

Sometimes I get automatically OFF, when you are around.
It's really awkward. I have no idea why..

Hmm.
But, still.. there always be a slight of wishes of you.

I guess I am just not crazy as I used to be.

Come an pull me back.
Show me something I want to see.




XOXO

weirdly peaceful

Not as crazy as it used to
Not as hard as it used to
Not as thrilling as it used to

IT IS JUST BLANK.

MOVE AND PULL ME BACK.

Or I probably ran away.

My friend told me that probably you spent some good times with a girl (an old one)
Weeeeew, got some shaky news. That's okay, you're not mine (not yet) anyway, so.. WHATEVER!

But, it is making me more tired even more.
Gosh. Told me that I am don't need to be worried okay?


Feeling shaky even more.
GET LOST DUDE!
LOL
:P



Still.... I do (freaking) wait.

XOXO

news

bittersweet

hmm
I just can not understand this up and down. Falling for you is not easy don't you know that?
I have try my best to watch and learn about you. It is not easy too and now you make me have to.. WAIT.
Damn wait!
Hey! Only you know what happen, and only me who knows what I feel. So, I need to know.
I am getting to loose my patience.
I am getting to loose my curiosity.
Since it's been quite long to wait for you.

Calling me impatience or easily changes mind, but 'it is' start to fade!

Save me, and lock me back to you...

I have begging you to beg me!

heeeeeeeeessssssssshh...

Still I want you!!!!!!!!!!!!



XOXO

talking about reasons..

PEOPLE SAID THERE MUST BE REASON BEHIND EVERY ACTIONS.

my friend ask,
"do you really like him? you don't even really know him."

then my brain is start working.
see? I get confused.

so after that I start to think, what makes me be like this?
guess what I just found a few, I mean not much.
because of... I DO NOT KNOW HIM ENOUGH!

well, I just realize that.

so, now I am officialy confused!
-__-

heh, he really bring me up and down.
what should I think?
hmm well I prefer not to think. I think too much about him.

so, left me in my own confusion.

pray for me.

xoxo

move forward!

hey I really put some effort in chasing! HAHAHAHAHA

and I get what I want wow!

so excited, but there's some questions flying around in my mind.
I think I need to make sure and be prepared, although I won't give up on you so easily.

heeeeerrrggg! I wish this process won't take long, I only have a few more weeks.
then tell me its real, that I didn't 'HUNT' for nothing..


I've done my part, NOW IS YOUR TURN PLEASE!




*have a blast!


xoxo

My management project = only worth 10% + so detailed on making a restaurannt + presentation

MAKING ME INSANE !

ahhhh..
actually I don't really mind doing it but, haaaaaaaa
it's becoming a little it confusing and we working faster because we really do it 'a la minute'
-_-

okay, but who cares?!!!!!!!
as long as it can be finish :P

so, maybe tonight I will be working hard, wish me luck. YEAAAAAAAAH!

I want this project getting a great score, because see even it's only worth 10%
but I dont want to lose that freaking 10% it is just really lame if we lost some marks on that, oh idk..

then I have the presentation which I have to do in the same day as I present the report (or proposal wanna-be!)
At least I think, it will be only Mr. Cubbin watch us :)
oh great!

so, overall I hope we will doing great!

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See you again!

AHAHAHAHAHAHA

in the middle of the town we met, happy!
talking about happiness, I saying HI actually can make my day man!
brrrrr.. I am getting 'there' am I not? (please say 'Yeah sure..' to me)

So here we go again I am making promise to myself again that I would smile and try to be not FREEZE :D

since I already melted down yesterday, so I guess today will be easier weeeeeeew.

and you must be don't believe what is my dream last night?!
pssst.. it's my secret dude LOL

ah, you know that me and adiya already making PLAN..
(it's a super plan, at least it is the only way for both of us)
but, I am still making up my mind when I should put up that plannnnnn????
heeeh..... -_-


OK, now I want to getting on my life again.. Pray for me.



Hey, I got my new quote =
Too many thinking won't make me sinking!

isn't it good? LOL

Tuesday Morning

Snow was falling so my day will be a little white today!

I don't want to go to my 10 o'clock French class but, since I need to know whats on the exam and Mr. Michaud is really nice so I have to go ><

Then I have cost control class.. oh I will try to focus this time.. but usually if I am getting focus, I will be damnly sleepy -_-

So, have any idea for me? how to deal with it?

Today probably I'll not meet my daring boy but, I hope I will LOL
Yesterday I haven't get the chance saying hallo, so I need to move my ass off!
*Pray for me since you know how easily I get freeze !

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When I look in the mirror now, oh God I gain lots of FAT in me..
hehe
even if it is stil acceptable but I guess I need to control my self, control the way I eat.. I have a big appetite here in Switzerland HAAAAAAAAA :P

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Loving this LIFE,


Gredia

After a good sunday brunch : I

OH, I MET YOU AND I FREEZE AGAIN :(

I gotta do something DEAR, (here we go, another something I don't know)..
I just hope you know and want to do something about it
oh God -_-


Next to this crazy love game, I have another bombing thing.. Oh yeaaaaaahh?!


And tomorrow I have a test for kitchen theory and practical >< and I almost forget it until JinWoo (my college friend) tell me we had a test.
Then I am getting more panic after Kwon (my other friend) ask me the guidelines, and he keep swearing after I said the guidelines is EVERYTHING CHEF TAUGHT US.. then I also feels like swearing a lot :P

HELP!

So now I am OFFICIALLY NEED TO BRING MY MIND UP AND GET FREAKING READY FOR NEXT WEEK

WHICH IS THE DEADLINES OF ALL MY PROJECTS..



Pray for me ><

P R O J E C T S

WHY SCHOOL LIKE TO MAKE ME BUSY?

:p

Okay, I am having my weekend and entirely feeling worried and scared since I have projects to do and it's have the same deadlines..

And I need to get a good-great marks, weeew!

Pray for me :)

Prodigy

Prodigy

My high school besties! My Friends as my brothers and sisters for me.
We used to be in the same place, then after three years we come to an end of a journey and a brand new beginning and opportunities.
Calling ourself a familly, it's not a whole bullshit LOL
Well I still love you, and you still love me don't you?!

Getting on a new track, I have always wondering how are you guys doing. The first month I'm not in dorm, I feel damnly awkward then, I know it won't change anything about me and you.

Dear my all - time friends,

Don't you know how I always say to my self, "I wish I was there eveytime I see your pictures getting on together. COME AND PICK ME UP! LOL

Let me know how it all goes there, mwaaah

HEEEEHEEE

I miss your silliness, your temper, your laugh, your oddness.

Call me jealous, since I am.

I wish I was there.




Love and gratefulness,


Gredia

Grab the chance ; BON CHANCE !

Thanks to you, my daring boy, I can't stop writing :D

YEAH YEAH..
KEEP YOUR APPETITE DARLING!

Just tell me how I got this far
Just tell me why you're here and who you are
'Cause every time I look
You're never there
And every time I sleep
You're always there

'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know

SOME PART OF MICHELLE BRANCH'S SONG

So I set up somethings, then will see how is it going. Pray for me.

And please let my mind stop wondering since I have :
3 project to settle
2 presentation to perform

hey please HAHAHAHAHA


*once again, hope we can start it on!
xoxo

S W I T Z E R L A N D

Hello and welcome to Switzerland,

Looking at all around me, stunning mountains, little sparkles of snow, and a challenging place called Swiss Hotel Management School! I need to survive during first year with everything around me changed. Not like back home.

Gratefully admiring my new life as I also worried about every step I made.

Thanking everything God give me while missing some part of me in another part of the world.

Ego.
I am here for the ego to go as far as I can to study, travel, experience and getting away.

Opportunity and it feels like opening a present. You don't know what is inside, you might like it or not, take it as it is. You might getting something else out of it :)

Love and gratefulness,

Gredia

desperation makes me MOVE (a little)

This whisper is just a slight stories of HOW am I being 'insanely' keep my crush LOL

Before last weekend I never have the guts to do anything about him. Not even smile at him :P
Nomundari said, 'hey you're not in a high school anymore.' well then she said I got to do something.. I have planned things, but weee it end up with just a day dreaming ><

Calling on all my guts and wishing for glory! I asked help from kakak Atiqa and Adiya. Well finally i got the chance. Chat with him, and I just let it go... I tried to not FREEZE again :D Believe it or not, I HAVE A PERFECT GREAT MOOD IN THE TWO DAYS AFTER THAT DAY.

OH YOU ARE SO DARING! hahahaha

It's like you are daring me, to get you. By the time you smile man I feel like fainting.. stupid thought!

The next day, I do try to chat again and it feels good. Good.

Hey, hey, hey doing this kind of chasing game it's not easy yeaaa.. Lots of things to do hahaha



*once again, hope we can be together

Who's making me enthusiatic going on each day?

A FIRST WHISPER.. (ssshhtt, don't tell anybody)

Like I said to Adiya and Atiqa.."Kita ini di tempati dingin, hati pun dingin.." LOL


well, it's been 2 months i get up with a wish to meet a boy :P
making me down, when i haven't seen him
making me crazy, i hardly catch my self.. wishing i don't look too obvious :) call me coward but i freeze or scared every time i saw him..

like Marie Digby said, I've been falling for you but the proper thing to do is for me is waiting like a lady for you to make a move! But.. (ohh God) since he did not, so I have to do something. With help of friends, I have talked to him and yeah I feel it is a good that I finally proceed, WEEW.